at videoezy
albeit running the risk
of furthur jeopardizing my
already not-so-optimistic
financial status.
i like tv,
i like the relationship i share
with
the world on the other side of
the screen - they ignore me
while i stare at them.
its great.
fahrenheit911 got disturbing
after a while.
moore's a psychotic radical
but i see where he's coming from.
yes, The World depresses me
on days i decide
to quit being
caught up in myself.
iraq is a bloody mess,
politicians take us ordinary civillians
as subjects of their PR exercises,
the earth is feverish,
a good proportion of the world
is perpetually hungry,
while i, like most of the world,
am unable to come up with any brilliant
idea to remedy all of these bullcrap.
the daily frustrations and
dilemma
of how many packets of tissues
i should
buy from that Aunty before she can
afford to stop selling them
and how long a way my
convenient, sometimes careless,
monetary goodwill can go;
whether or not i am right
to motivate
whoever's behind the idea of putting
the dude suffering from
Cerebral palsy-
who clearly looks uncomfortable-
out at the bus
interchange to beg for coins.
life is tiring, when you can't
look at your
da-baoed cai fan in styrofoam box
without being reminded that
you just played
a part in murdering mother nature.
life is tiring when
you can't have a peaceful
train ride without
being told over and over
than somebody's bag might
just blow up in your face.
how not to be tempted to creep
back into self-indulgence where
we concentrate wholly
on our simpler,
shallower personal lives?
the inconvenience,
the unpracticality
of being extraordinary,
of "being the change you want to
see in the world"
puts out that fire
a little bit, every time.
most of us are resigned,
because of how we already
struggle to take
control over life
within our own circle,
what more,
go through the trouble of
changing the world.
we are mostly comforted that
we dedicate at least some
moments of our lives
bothering to see
the world beyond ourselves.
but for bulk of the rest of the time,
we proceed with our unapologetic,
selfabsorbed lives.
8:02 PM